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on the way to there

There is a part of the Jewish memorial service for the dead where mourners are encouraged to offer a small pebble with a prayer, kiss the pebble, and leave it at the gravesite.

Over the weekend I've written a set of offertory prayers, short ones. There are four and one is in behalf of everyone who traveled either through her LJ or mine or both of ours.

I have brought these four pebbles with me from America. One is from Evergreen, at the same spot where we hugged each other goodbye that last Friday.

I was very very moved by Kala's ceremony which she held immediately afterwards. This was eighteen weeks ago in the wilderness / Colorado Rockies area involving a favourite photo of her holding a kitten, and a candle. So she has inspired me. And she still does, of course. All the time.

I am going to offer the prayers and take the stones to her at one of her favourite chosen photo locations not very far from the Old City of Jerusalem, where I am staying now. It's an abandoned railway station in Efek Refa'im, 'The Valley Of The Ghosts", called that because there is a tradition of fog coming in each morning. Not sure what time of day I will be there.

If you want to go over to each one of her Deviant Art photo sites you will see the photos she took of Becky walking the tracks trying to keep her balance [either as the sun is going down or as it is coming up, I'll figure that out.] The titles are not the same between sites and I think that is important. The photo set is a perfect metaphor, for me, of Kiota's own life ... especially the portrait of Becky, as one small girl, walking away from the camera down the tracks that don't end but just disappear into the distance. Two sisters in a perfect thread.

From her notes you can't tell at all if that is what Kiota intended but I hear her heart talking to me in those images. The two of them were there in January 2007 and it is the last Becky series she took before leaving for the US to study in Idaho and then start at Evergreen in September.

This all talks to me of Kiota's living presences and not of her dead body at all. Where she does not live anymore.

So I expect this all to be something rather titanic and it's the reason I'm being led here. To listen a lot as well as to pray.

I will be taking a couple of pictures and posting them, once the ceremony is over and I find a computer to download my digicam/computer images here into my LJ.

I'll be doing this small ceremony physically alone, but I think I will never have ever been more connected to all of you. Or more connected to a lot of other things. Of course that has been happening the moment I stepped onto the plane in New York.

Each of the other three stones has a special meaning too. And its own offertory prayer. My own, and one other one, is private, I will share the second one with that Friend. Who is also an inspiration, although we've never physically met.

It's both closure and non-closure / continuation / in the same moments.

Some things about Kiota will never die and it is those which breathe in my heart.

Blessings Be.


( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
Aug. 25th, 2008 04:50 pm (UTC)
You write beautifully...
Aug. 28th, 2008 07:21 am (UTC)
And you are one of the people who inspire me. By your path.
Aug. 26th, 2008 02:23 am (UTC)
Some things about Kiota will never die and it is those which breathe in my heart.

Yes. Exactly.

I need this today.
Aug. 28th, 2008 07:22 am (UTC)
I need it every day.

And, meow, beautiful icon today.
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